{"id":268,"date":"2017-08-27T11:47:21","date_gmt":"2017-08-27T09:47:21","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/hulyaalaybeyoglu.com.tr\/?p=268"},"modified":"2018-10-31T13:57:36","modified_gmt":"2018-10-31T11:57:36","slug":"oykulendirilmis-vaka-ornekleri","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/hulyaalaybeyoglu.com.tr\/index.php\/2017\/08\/27\/oykulendirilmis-vaka-ornekleri\/","title":{"rendered":"\u00d6yk\u00fclendirilmis Vak’a \u00d6rnekleri"},"content":{"rendered":"
Vak\u2019a \u00d6rne\u011fi 1:<\/strong><\/span><\/h5>\n

\u0130\u00e7imdeki \u00e7\u00f6kk\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131 \u00f6yle geni\u015f ki, o geni\u015fli\u011fi saniyeler i\u00e7ine s\u0131\u011fd\u0131rmak zorunda kal\u0131rken, a\u011f\u0131rla\u015fan zaman\u0131n a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r ilerlemesine dayanacak g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcn kalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7aresizce izliyorum. Sanki zaman, s\u0131rt\u0131ma y\u00fck y\u00fcklemi\u015f, beni iteleye iteleye bir yerlere s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u00fcyordu. Y\u00fck\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ya\u015fam\u0131n dibine vuru\u015fum da zaman\u0131n bana ihanetiydi. Dayan\u0131kl\u0131 olmak gerekiyordu, ama nereye kadar.. S\u00fcr\u00fcklenerek ge\u00e7en zaman\u0131n, a\u011f\u0131rla\u015fm\u0131\u015f bir ya\u015fam\u0131n, bir sonraki g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rmeye tahamm\u00fcls\u00fcz\u00fcm art\u0131k. <\/i><\/p>\n

\u00dcz\u00fcc\u00fc olaylar\u0131 herkes ya\u015fayabilir. Herkes \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndan nas\u0131l kalkaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da bilir. Baz\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z bilemiyor ne yaz\u0131k ki, ben de \u00f6yle.. \u00dcz\u00fcnt\u00fclerimi biriktire biriktire ya\u015f\u0131yorum. Sonra ge\u00e7mi\u015fe d\u00f6n\u00fcp o birikimlerimi tekrar tekrar say\u0131yorum. Bir bak\u0131yorum, gelece\u011fe yat\u0131r\u0131m yapacak kadar birikim yapm\u0131\u015f\u0131m. \u00c7ok sevdi\u011fim insanlar\u0131 kaybetmi\u015fim, sa\u011fl\u0131k sorunlar\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f\u0131m, haks\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa u\u011fram\u0131\u015f\u0131m, ihmal edilmi\u015fim, sevgi ile de\u011fil bask\u0131 ile b\u00fcy\u00fct\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm, birikmi\u015f de birikmi\u015f. \u015eimdi bekliyorum \u00f6ylece, birikimlerime birikim katar m\u0131y\u0131m diye. <\/i><\/p>\n

En \u00e7ok da \u00e7aresiz bir hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131n pen\u00e7esine d\u00fc\u015fmek gibi olumsuz bir beklentim var. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fte ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir rahats\u0131zl\u0131k nedeniyle b\u00f6yle bir tehlikenin e\u015fi\u011finden d\u00f6nd\u00fcm. Doktorum talihsiz bir \u015fekilde \u201cbiyopsi sonu\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 eline almadan rahat uyuma\u201d dedi\u011finde, t\u0131rmanmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m moral basamaklar\u0131ndan h\u0131zla geriye d\u00fc\u015ferek yere kapand\u0131m. O g\u00fcn zihnim karard\u0131. Biyopsi sonu\u00e7lar\u0131 temiz \u00e7\u0131ksa da, bug\u00fcn zihnimde hala olumsuz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler… Nerede o herkeste g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm ya\u015fama sevinci, nerede o gezip e\u011flenmeler?! Bitkinim, kederliyim, umutsuzum, en \u00f6nemlisi de ge\u00e7mi\u015f \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcleri, gelece\u011fin bilinmeyen noktalar\u0131na serpi\u015ftirerek, kendime ya\u015fama alan\u0131 b\u0131rakmadan, ya\u015famdan geri \u00e7ekilmem.<\/i><\/p>\n

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Vak\u2019a \u00d6rne\u011fi 2:<\/strong><\/span><\/h5>\n

\u00d6l\u00fcm korkusu, y\u0131llarca i\u00e7imi kevgire \u00e7evirmi\u015fti, hatta enkaz haline getirmi\u015fti. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck ya\u015flardan itibaren, ailemin iyi bir evlat yeti\u015ftirme \u00e7abas\u0131n\u0131n arkas\u0131nda yatan korkutarak e\u011fitme y\u00f6ntemi, benim ya\u015fayan bir \u00f6l\u00fc olarak hayat\u0131m\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrmeme neden oldu. G\u00fcnah i\u015fleme kavram\u0131n\u0131 tam anlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ya\u015flarda, g\u00fcnah i\u015flendi\u011finde, \u00f6ld\u00fckten sonra maruz kalaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z azap ve cehennem, akl\u0131m\u0131 alan tek ger\u00e7ekti. Yani \u00f6l\u00fcm ger\u00e7ek, azap ger\u00e7ek, cehennem ger\u00e7ek, bizler g\u00fcnahkard\u0131k. Bu ger\u00e7eklere g\u00f6re i\u00e7imde yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m senaryolar korkun\u00e7tu. Ergenlik d\u00f6nemine kadar bu senaryolarla donatt\u0131m kendimi. Korkular\u0131m benimle birlikte b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc; i\u00e7imin yap\u0131 ta\u015flar\u0131, in\u015fas\u0131, mimar\u0131yd\u0131. <\/i><\/p>\n

B\u00fcy\u00fcyen korkular\u0131m\u0131n kesi\u015fti\u011fi bir olay vard\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m. Ergenlik y\u0131llar\u0131mda bir g\u00fcn, bir yak\u0131n\u0131m\u0131z vefat etti. Annemle birlikte cenaze evine gittik. \u0130stemeyerek de olsa \u00f6len bir insan\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ilk kez g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. O anda, i\u00e7imde yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m senaryolarla, g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm ger\u00e7ek \u00f6yle bir y\u00fczle\u015fti ki, bu kadar h\u0131zl\u0131 bir \u00e7arp\u0131lmay\u0131 beklemiyordum. Titreyen bedenim, korkunun ate\u015f gibi yakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 duygular\u0131m, hadsiz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerim ve art\u0131k hi\u00e7bir tesellinin fayda etmedi\u011fi ya\u015fayan \u00f6l\u00fc, kendim\u2026 <\/i><\/p>\n

\u00d6l\u00fcn\u00fcn y\u00fcz\u00fc, azap ve cehennemi izlettiriyordu sanki bana. \u0130\u00e7imde yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m senaryolar\u0131 g\u00f6steren ekran gibiydi. \u00d6l\u00fcm korkusunu \u015fiddetlendirdi, \u015fiddeti g\u00fcnlerce ge\u00e7medi, ya\u015fam\u0131n t\u00fcm g\u00fczelliklerini perdeledi, \u00f6yle ki, ya\u015fam diye bir \u015fey yoktu. Sadece korku d\u00fcnyas\u0131 i\u00e7inde ya\u015fayan ki\u015fi vard\u0131. Art\u0131k \u00f6l\u00fcm korkusu var, \u201cben\u201d diye bir \u015fey yoktu. <\/i><\/p>\n

Y\u0131llar ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e i\u00e7imin her k\u00f6\u015fesine may\u0131n gibi yerle\u015fti korku. Her cenazede bir may\u0131n patlad\u0131. Enkaz \u00fcst\u00fcne enkaz\u2026 \u00d6len ben miydim, di\u011ferleri mi? Ya\u015fam s\u00fcr\u00fcp gidiyordu, ama ben ya\u015fam\u0131n neresinde vard\u0131m? Daha do\u011frusu kendimi tan\u0131mlamam gerekirse; i\u00e7imde yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m senaryolar, devaml\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm korkusu, ya\u015fam\u0131 s\u0131rtlanamayan bir beden ve tek muhatab\u0131m \u00f6l\u00fcler\u2026 <\/i><\/p>\n

\u0130lk ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m cenaze evindeki korkum y\u00fcz\u00fcnden bir daha asla d\u00fczelemedim. Korkular\u0131m b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc, ben k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcld\u00fcm. \u00d6l\u00fcm denilen ger\u00e7ek bir g\u00fcn benim i\u00e7in de ger\u00e7ek olacak. B\u00f6yle bir ger\u00e7ek yok diyebilir mi kimse bana? Kim teselli edebilir beni? Korkular\u0131m\u0131 kim giderebilir? Her g\u00fcn, bir sonraki gelecek g\u00fcnlere kendimi g\u00f6mmek gibi bir yetenekle ya\u015f\u0131yorum art\u0131k ben.<\/i><\/p>\n

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\u00a9Copyright 2017, Her hakk\u0131 sakl\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Vak\u2019a \u00d6rne\u011fi 1: \u0130\u00e7imdeki \u00e7\u00f6kk\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131 \u00f6yle geni\u015f ki, o geni\u015fli\u011fi saniyeler i\u00e7ine s\u0131\u011fd\u0131rmak zorunda kal\u0131rken, a\u011f\u0131rla\u015fan zaman\u0131n a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r ilerlemesine dayanacak g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcn kalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7aresizce izliyorum. Sanki zaman, s\u0131rt\u0131ma y\u00fck y\u00fcklemi\u015f, beni iteleye iteleye bir yerlere s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u00fcyordu. Y\u00fck\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ya\u015fam\u0131n dibine vuru\u015fum da zaman\u0131n bana ihanetiydi. Dayan\u0131kl\u0131 olmak gerekiyordu, ama nereye kadar.. S\u00fcr\u00fcklenerek ge\u00e7en zaman\u0131n, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-268","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-makaleler"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/hulyaalaybeyoglu.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/268","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/hulyaalaybeyoglu.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/hulyaalaybeyoglu.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hulyaalaybeyoglu.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hulyaalaybeyoglu.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=268"}],"version-history":[{"count":13,"href":"https:\/\/hulyaalaybeyoglu.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/268\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":480,"href":"https:\/\/hulyaalaybeyoglu.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/268\/revisions\/480"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/hulyaalaybeyoglu.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=268"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hulyaalaybeyoglu.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=268"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hulyaalaybeyoglu.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=268"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}